Okay so I was more than a little surprised to find that Italy has rather slim pickings guy wise. However I have been able to find not one but two guys! Shocking I know there are several catches, both are very different lets start with the easier one …..
Stephen: He is really sweet and funny, he walks me home when I have had too much to drink or just because sometimes. I know that he likes me for a fact but I just don’t know how I feel, sometime it feel like it would be sooo easy to be with him and others it feels like we should just be friends, like we could be such good friends, really close but not together. He play fights with me, and tickles me (now he knows how ticklish I am). I just don’t know how I feel about him yet and Sophie is pressuring me to be with him 1. because she really likes him as a person. 2. She really does not want me to be with Lloyd, speaking of…..
Lloyd: Things with Lloyd are complicated for starters he is 18 and I am 21, I know age is supposed to only be a number, but let’s be real people talk and they judge. Harshly. I’m not even sure what it is exactly but the is just something between us, call it chemistry if you want but I just can’t explain it properly! He read the same kind of book as me (which is important as I love books!) And all he has to do is look at me and I’m smiling. Now things get even more complicated with Lloyd when you take the other night into account…. It was Christmas eve so spirits were high and a lot of drink was being consumed, Lloyd was all over me kissing my shoulder, telling me over and over that he really likes me etc etc. Then as a small group of us move from the Dragon (Christmas eve party), to gasoline (end of the night bar) he grabbed my hand while we were walking so we arrived looking very close. I went to walk inside he stopped me and asked me to wait with him whilst he finished his fag, so I did. And then he starts in that he wants a Christmas kiss, so I tell him he has to get rid of his cig and I would think about it, in an instant it was gone. And suddenly he was kissing me… Which if I am honest I really didn’t mind, and inside he was the same all over me and then out of the blue he kisses me again this time in front of everyone, then in the course of the night he was talking to another girl, Nikki, which i was fine with, what I was less fine with was when he went home with her! so things are sort of up in the air with us at the moment and I’m unsure of how to continue…..
Do I hope that Lloyd was just really drunk and that he actually is someone who I could have something with, or do I take the chance that there could be something there with Stephen and give it a go????
One other option is to just join a convent, I wonder what the food is like there????