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Okay so I was more than a little surprised to find that Italy has rather slim pickings guy wise. However I have been able to find not one but two guys! Shocking I know there are several catches, both are very different lets start with the easier one …..

Stephen: He is really sweet and funny, he walks me home when I have had too much to drink or just because sometimes. I know that he likes me for a fact but I just don’t know how I feel, sometime it feel like it would be sooo easy to be with him and others it feels like we should just be friends, like we could be such good friends, really close but not together. He play fights with me, and tickles me (now he knows how ticklish I am). I just don’t know how I feel about him yet and Sophie is pressuring me to be with him 1. because she really likes him as a person. 2. She really does not want me to be with Lloyd, speaking of…..

Lloyd: Things with Lloyd are complicated for starters he is 18 and I am 21, I know age is supposed to only be a number, but let’s be real people talk and they judge. Harshly. I’m not even sure what it is exactly but the is just something between us, call it chemistry if you want but I just can’t explain it properly! He read the same kind of book as me (which is important as I love books!) And all he has to do is look at me and I’m smiling. Now things get even more complicated with Lloyd when you take the other night into account…. It was Christmas eve so spirits were high and a lot of drink was being consumed, Lloyd was all over me kissing my shoulder, telling me over and over that he really likes me etc etc. Then as a small group of us move from the Dragon (Christmas eve party), to gasoline (end of the night bar) he grabbed my hand while we were walking so we arrived looking very close. I went to walk inside he stopped me and asked me to wait with him whilst he finished his fag, so I did. And then he starts in that he wants a Christmas kiss, so I tell him he has to get rid of his cig and I would think about it, in an instant it was gone. And suddenly he was kissing me… Which if I am honest I really didn’t mind, and inside he was the same all over me and then out of the blue he kisses me again this time in front of everyone, then in the course of the night he was talking to another girl, Nikki, which i was fine with, what I was less fine with was when he went home with her! so things are sort of up in the air with us at the moment and I’m unsure of how to continue…..

Do I hope that Lloyd was just really drunk and that he actually is someone who I could have something with, or do I take the chance that there could be something there with Stephen and give it a go???? 

One other option is to just join a convent, I wonder what the food is like there????

TTFN xxxx 

It’s official, I have been here in the beautiful mountains of Italy for two weeks now, and it has been Full of daily ups and downs. The first night here in resort was AMAZING! There was drinks and dancing on tables, everyone was out and having a laugh, one of the supervisors insisted I jump through this gap in the wall with him and another member of staff, although I did fall on my first attempt, The lovely Scottish very many Pete who was more than happy to show me how it was done and even make sure that I didn’t fall! And although we didn’t realize it at the time there was trouble brewing…… 

Then there was the morning after……

Elsie a girl who lives next door to to us was soo far past drunk it is untrue! We were all told that the next day we were having a meeting with our regional manager, and her whole apartment (three people) were all over an hour and a half late. so we were all banned from drinking for the first 4-5 days! all because some silly little girl can’t handle her drink. And is completely unable to have any respect or consideration for any other people! The ban went down really really well with everyone.  Then there is our hotel. Well I call it a hotel it is more like an abandoned building site! I am supposed to be working in the kitchen which would be great, if the kitchen had been built!!! For two weeks all I have done is made a few pancakes two salads and done some prep for yet more salad, with guests arriving in a week I am panicking to the extreme. The rest of the first week went by pretty smoothly more or less we cleaned and moved the furniture in the hotel fun fun. 

The hotel remained the same dirty and miserable, I swear if it wasn’t for the amazing night life and people here I would have gone home already! But as the title of this post indicates it hasn’t been all bad, There has been a lot of surprises form the strangest people. Olli for example is a kitchen porter in the other hotel (because they have a kitchen) and at first glance he comes across as some one who will be really annoying and the kind of person that just makes you want to scream at them, however on a spontaneous night out he tagged along with us and was just the most amazing person to have out, he is funny a weird but amusing dancer and just soo much fun to be out with, such a turn around from my first thoughts, proving the age old saying you cant judge a book by it’s cover! 

Now my next post will be very boy related sorry to any boys reading this… But all I am going to say is there has been one potentially BIG mistake and one who COULD be a mistake I might just have to check……….

Till next time people for now I’m off out so I actually have something to wright about other than boys!!!!! 

Okay so I know that my posts are going to be few and far between, however upon arrival at where I will be working for the next few months I was confronted not with a functioning hotel and a working kitchen but a building site! That’s right a building site… not exactly what I was expecting but I have been rolling with it none the less. 

Now on to the people. In particular boys… There area few who have shown an interest one a few years younger who has potential is funny and sweet but immature. Another who is intriguing but the things he says about his past relations with girls are pug headed and disrespectful to the point where  I just feel sorry for every girl who has ever been with him! Then there is the guy who’s ex is going around clock blocking him, real mature I know, but I really do not want to upset anyone yet,especially when I have to spend the next FIVE MONTHS with these people. I always thought Italy was full of attractive passionate men, looks like I might be in the wrong part of Italy. That or I just attract a poor choice in males! 

other antics for the week involve dancing on tables, jumping through letter boxes and getting hammered with management! But more of that another day ( got to hold something back keep things mysterious) 

ciao for now people here’s to having some better news next time! or mathematics better men

xoxo

I haven’t even left yet and I am already terrified! What if I fail? What if I suck and they fire me? How embarrassing would that be? Being sent home early, having to explain over and over the reasons why. But pulling out at this point would be worse, with two weeks till I leave deciding that I can’t do it. It’s PATHETIC! I want to be brave and just be excited, I mean it’s not like everybody has the opportunity to work in Italy. I don’t know if I’m strong enough for this. I spend all this time trying to convince other people that I’m strong, independent and capable of this, when maybe I should of been trying to convince myself!! 

Oh well we will soon find out, I have a horrible feeling that this is one of those moments in a persons life when they either sink or swim. I knew I should have paid mode attention in my swimming lessons!….